Professor and (girl) student

I have problem with man since very few men I met I like. I am in late 21th. But now I am taking a class with Professor that I very like as a man and I think he likes me too by the way he looks at me. Of course it is my fantazy. But would an experienced man would advise me to do. I am a good student, I do not short term relations and I do not want to marry yet. I just want a man with who I could spend time, enjoy being with him and should be safe.
I think that Professor I am talking about fit my wishings. He is about 35 years old. But there is a prablem he is married and his wife is pregnant. What I want from him is to be my lover. Since I have plans to study in graduate school and I don't want any responsibilities right now. I am so confused. Please what would you say on my rave. I want to say that I tried to get to know some younger men but I can stand them I just want to run from them from the first talk I have with them. I also wnat to say that in my life I had only two man that I have such a filling that I would like to get to know him more and one of them is that Professor. May be I stupid? May be I old fashioned? May be what I think is unreal and never can be achieved? WHAT TO DO?
May be I should forget about whole men? BUT I like men a lot but some kind of special men. PLEASE answer on my crazy, unreasonable, foolish rave. I apologyze if it is very studpid.

Vika, (22.02.2001 Чт 10:10)